Big Changes

When I left my job of nearly ten years to raise my girls I could have never expected the amount of change my life was about to endure. Having kids creates a new world for a person. My life went from being my own to navigate, then it became something else. Something so unknown, so new. Being a new parent leaves one feeling like they know nothing. You can read all the books and get all sorts of advice before you become a parent. None of it compares to the moment you bring that little one into your home and you and your husband become a family. When all the knowledge in the world can't help you figure out what to do next. The map you were so used to reading became an unknown language overnight. Talk about change!

This change, I will be honest, seemed to be getting easier as time went on. Then along came a second tiny person into our lives and all that gained wisdom... well it didn't amount to much. The map again changed languages on us. Actually it changed languages and added additional symbols we'd never seen. We've managed. Survived. 

The next major change we faced came just a few weeks ago. Our oldest started school. Kindergarten. What a roller coaster ride we have jumped on. Kids keep you on your toes. You feel like you are standing in the ocean and just as you get your footing after a wave, there is one not far behind. God is gracious in all of this. I may have felt pushed beyond my limits. Stretched further than I thought possible. Yet, through it all we survive. Many times it felt like being led blindfolded. You are forced to trust in a way you never knew before. I have never known faith like this. Never trusted so deeply. Parenting challenges you to the core. The way God wants to challenge us to the core. To change you. Stretch you into the person he knows you can be. Life is constantly changing. Growing. God wants us to be growing as well. Like the children he entrusts to us. Not just in little things, he wants us to reach full maturity. The same way we wish to raise our children to be adults. Both of which take lots and lots of; patience, love, trust, faith, work and so much more of ourselves then we ever thought possible. 

Beginnings

All stories have a beginning. This is the start of something new for me. A way to share my story in a way that allows freedom. Anonymity. I have been a mom for over five years. I have two beautiful little girls that keep me running from when they wake up, until way after they go to bed. Often I have a hard time reflecting. Thinking about the constant go of life is almost as exhausting as keeping up with my girls. But, I realize I need an outlet. Something to release the constant internal battle in my brain. Relieve the pressure so to speak. So... here goes nothing.

My girls have been a big challenge to my faith. But, not in the way you may think. As most parents will likely say, "I didn't realize how selfish I still was until I was a parent!" Man is that truth for me. Getting married was an eye opener, but having kids... Could I be doing more wrong in my walk with God?! Sure didn't seem possible. God is so full of grace. Rather than beat me down, He has often been gentle in His reminders of my short comings. Am I imperfect? Yes. Do I need reminding? Yes. Is He harsh about it? No. He has brought to light many of my stumbling about moments through those teaching moments I have with my own children. Thus my title, Pint Size Convictions.

This blog will be where I share those "ah ha" moments while raising my daughters. Praising Him for his grace and mercy when I least deserve it, remembering in a day what is truly important and thanking Jesus for the many gifts He has given me.

Join me.

Sincerely,
A Mom Being Molded